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Should I change my profile picture to this?
GUESS WHO JUST TOOK AN 8 HOUR NAP. I feel fantastic, but sadly it is 10:40 p.m. and I have messed up my sleeping schedule even further
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— Clive Barker (via drupes)
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My mind moves faster than my fingers can type and my thoughts
form faster than the words can escape my mouth. People ask
me why I can’t drink coffee and I can’t explain to them that I
really have no need for it. I stutter on my thoughts and see
people’s sympathetic looks when they try to understand me.
Some days my day starts at 1 a.m. and other days, my day
doesn’t even start at all because I can’t leave my bed.
People tell me they’re there for me if I need to talk,
but I want them to understand that I don’t really
have much to talk about. It’s just this switch
in my mind that’s constantly flipping between hypomania
and depression without any explanation and some days
it gets stuck in the middle. People think it’s a superpower
because sometimes I can get so much done, but would
you call it a superpower if you knew that sometimes
I drink a whole bottle of wine with my medication just
to go to sleep? That I’m so bad at sleeping some nights that
when I overdose, I’m not trying to die, just trying to
find an easy solution because I’m so sleep deprived.
I’m so moody and I can’t do anything about it but broadcast
hurricane warnings the day you meet me then apologize for the
destruction I’ve caused after I force you out of your home.
Some days my mind constructs an infinite number of possibilities
for the future, but then I get to a point where I realize I have no
energy to make any of it happen. People ask me how I can keep
up with writing a poem a day, but sometimes I write three poems
a day and most days they don’t make sense. My mind is constantly
narrating the story of my life and if I could hook up my brain
to a keyboard, I think I’d be set for life. Everything is a metaphor
and I can’t stop seeing poetry everywhere. My fingertips
get nervous and excited. They are crackling with electricity.
Some days my imagination can’t stop creating things that
don’t make any sense to other people.”
— 8:30 a.m. (I’m trying to figure out if it’s a blessing or a curse)
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I hope when you peel citrus fruit
that it all comes out in one piece.
I hope that you have nothing to do today
so that you can stay in the shower
because sometimes that’s the warmest
and safest place to be.
I hope you let the sidewalk kiss
the bottoms of your bare
blistered feet after you’ve walked
far too long in uncomfortable shoes.
I hope the lights are all green on your drive home.
I hope the cashier looks at you like you’re beautiful.
I hope you have an appetite tonight and I hope
you have good things to eat.
I hope the walk to your car smells like trees.
I hope you haven’t forgotten how lovely you are.
We all have different definitions of a good day.
I hope you get some stuff done
even when you couldn’t leave your bed last week.
I hope you went outside even though
you didn’t want to see anyone.
I hope you at least have a day
where nothing bad happens.
I hope you have a day when you give yourself a break
because you need to remember that you’re human.
I hope you do something that makes you feel good about yourself.
I hope you do something for you and only you.
I hope you remember it’s not selfish.
I hope you remember it’s okay to eat.
Most of all, I hope you don’t die
because you are so many people’s reasons
to stay alive.
— 4:20 p.m. (You deserve the best, I hope you get it)
5:00 pm 9,684 notes
ive wanted to make a post about this for a while and ive talked about it with a few people but okay like
i obviously think pro-ana and thinspo shit is dumb and i hate it. but i think it’s so wrong to attack the people who run those blogs. a lot of those girls really are starving themselves. i never was into pro-ana or thinspo stuff, but i definitely did look at pro-ana sites a few times at the very beginning of my eating disorder before i even knew i had an eating disorder for like ideas of how to lose weight. and honestly, a lot of the people on those sites do end up developing eating disorders or at least have very disordered eating and horrible body image/dysmorphia that follows them for the rest of their lives.
i know how infuriating all those pro-ana graphics can be but that doesn’t mean you should turn around and berate the people posting them about how they don’t have eating disorders and how horrible and dumb they are because no matter how fucking dumb and annoying and grating the shit they post may be, it’s really often fueled by something very real.
and i have been in treatment with/known girls with diagnosed EDs who used to be really into thinspo and pro-ana, i even know some girls who still follow dumb thinspo instagrams and whatnot.
basically what i’m trying to say is that obviously you can and should be against the idea of pro-ana, but you shouldn’t shit all over all of the people who get into it. no one with a healthy mind would want to starve themselves.
i’m so so glad this post has been made. yes pro ana is disgusting and horrible but somebody’s involvement within the community doesn’t mean their eating disorder diagnosis is less valid. besides, in 2014 (and at least for the last two or three years), most people on the internet who call themselves “pro ana” aren’t actually pro anorexia as a “”“lifestyle choice”“”” i think it’s more just become a label to define anoretic’s on the internet who aim to lose more weight/discuss it. inside these communities you’ll find people who hate their disorder/lives etc just as much as any other ED sufferer. yes, they still believe that reaching an “”“UGW”“” will make them happy but that’s their disorder and not a self imposed “”lifestyle choice”“.
i hope i don’t sound like i’m defending the concept of pro ana because i’m not- if i could go back in time i would punch and slap my 14 yr old self to get her off of that shit because it literally melts your brain cells. all in all, some of the people on tumblr who go after “pro ana” bloggers don’t have blogs that different from pro ana ones themselves- you really think posting photos of your weight loss transition and your ribs, your text posts about not eating for a couple of days or whatever, you really think that makes you any better just because you’re not identifying as pro ana?
yes pro ana is horrible and so is thinspo and i wish none of it existed but it does. that doesn’t make it right to attack fellow ED sufferers. additionally, fuck anyone who finds a photo of a pro ana blogger who doesn’t look like they fit the underweight BMI range anorexia diagnosis criteria and tells them off for ‘self diagnosing’- you don’t know anything about this persons life. i have seen bloggers do this and it’s just so fucking rude.
im glad this got notes but it should have more just sayin
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For my photography class I did series of self-portraits in which I attempted to portray culture and counterculture for the past 10 decades. This is the product of that idea…
You don’t have to deal with it by yourself, promise
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